my heart is Crying.....

Im not happy now...
i feel like to cry...
No one knows...
im facing the wall...
facing my labtop...
none can see me...

Im so scare...
scare people keep on understand me...
when they start to understand me more...
sometimes they act differently...
sometimes they have their own plans...
to achieve something...
and eventually...
i'll be hurt...
deeply wounded...

What is the meaning of friendship?
What is the meaning of L-O-V-E?

Someone... please tell me...